坦诚

In the mood of drinking chinese tea

有时候，刻意隐瞒只会弄巧反拙。不如实话实说。

replaying 2008 ; previewing 2009

In the mood of drinking green tea

Replay
<<Rewind to 1st Jan 2008; Play>

A year has just passed, and this year seemed to be a pretty fast one. As I finished my pre-U at the end of 2007, and was waiting for the intake in June, I worked from January till May in a kindergarten. Working in a place full of kids is sorta tiring, but fun as well. And throughout my days there, I somehow made the kids like me (Not boasting). They asked their teacher why I was not there after I left for studies. Haha.. I do visit them when I get back home so that they will not forget me. Hehee.. Not to forget mentioning that I took 2 weeks off my usual routine and went to China to visit my aunt there. She lives in a village which was quite 'ulu'. I couldn't get used to it but somehow it was a good experience. It was soo cold over there because the snow storm that happened early this year was about to begin and I was lucky not to be trapped by the storm and spending my Chinese New Year in China. I'll lose all my 'angpaus'. Living in a village in such weather where you don't have proper facilities is tough. That's how I spent my 1st half of the year, doing the same thing everyday, living slumberly in my comfort zone. The happy days at home went through so quickly, that I barely noticed.

And it was time to leave home again for studies. What's worse is this time I'll be going further from home than KL to Malacca where I don't have friends and relatives there. Unlike in KL, where I had alot of places to go, and lotsa peepz to hang out with, be it my buddies or cousins. I suddenly felt that I missed KL so much after being here. And I was complaining about KL when I was there last time. Ironic huh?? Like it or not, the fact is I'm already here. What makes things worse is when I found out that one of my good friend that came here with me is withdrawing as he got an offer from a local uni. I was so doomed for like a few weeks. Moody and lonely I was, in a place that I'm not even familiar with. It took me months, to recover from all this crap. I don't have a close friend here, I don't like the place as well. There are so few places that I can go when I'm bored, unlike in KL. Not to mention that I don't even have a transport to ferry my lazy ass around. So I'm walking everyday, and didn't notice that I got slimmer. I wanted a car so badly!! By the way, thanks to those who provided me support. There are too many names to name. By now, after half a year, I'm used to this place, and I got a couple of friends. That makes my life better. Another 3.5 years to spend here, so I'd better live the fullest outta it.

Reached 31st Dec 2008

Previewing 2009

Well, hopefully it will be a great year ahead, despite the current financial crisis hitting the rest of the world by next year. A new year, a new ME, a better ME. My 2009 resolution would be

1. Drink more water - I've been drinking very less water all this while and it's not good for health.
2. Sleep earlier - Hopefully I could sleep at 12am or 1am the latest. Have been sleeping at 2 or 3am these days.
3. Be more humble
4. Make more friends - I seriously need to meet more people.
5. Try not to spend too much ( But this is unlikely to happen as I cannot stand it when I see something I like, and I am eyeing on the new macbook now )
6. Study harder (tsk tsk)
7. Be a happier person
8. Spend more time with my family

So I think that's all. Afterall I might not be able to follow all of those above, so no point of having too many. Lol.

Stay tuned for 2009.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

妈妈

In the mood of drinking earl grey tea

假期结束了。在家幸福的日子也结束了。妈妈把我送到车站，还把我送到车上。上了车，整顿好一切，便往车窗外看看，发现妈妈一直在外面站着看我。我向她笑笑，并拿起手机，拨给妈妈，跟她说声再见，再挥挥手。我用手语要妈妈回家去，不必等到车开。她点点头，笑着走了。看着她的背影，渐渐的离开我的视线,使我感受到妈妈对我无限的关怀和呵护。妈妈，真得很谢谢你。

临别

In the mood of drinking black tea

临别时，从家里带了一瓶水。
想家时，喝一喝从家里带着的水，就能感受到家里温暖的味道。。。

停止

In the mood of drinking black tea

真希望时间可以暂时停止，好让我多留在家里一些。

should i change?

In the mood of drinking black tea


Nearly four months had passed, and yet I'm not that happy over here. I felt like the path is never ending over here. Or maybe I shouldn't have been here in the first place. But its still not too late for me to make a move. Should I??

It was a happy birthday

In the mood of drinking banana milk tea

Birthday is a day when you get attention from people around you. It feels so good. A simple and sincere wish is worth lot more than any present. The part I enjoyed most during my birthday is just merely getting wishes from my friends and family. Hearing my phone ringing continuously is just enjoyable.

I would like to say THANKS to all who wished me on my birthday.
Especially Jiay Yuan, Vivien, Keng Leong, Chu Hoong and Chwan Yeong who came all the way from KL to Malacca to celebrate with me as I couldnt get a bus ticket to KL. I was so touched and happy to see them. I'd say it was my happiest day in Malacca. I really smiled from deep inside my heart. Also not to forget Shaw Jhee who called me from Australia, Win-ni from London, Pau Pau, Wei Lee, Endry who video called me and sang me a birthday song and also those who texted me and wished me on facebook n friendster. This year's birthday was as GREAT as last year's!!

Satay celup

Celup celup

What are u people doing??

Jonker Walk after the heavy dinner

Rubber band guns

Chicken ball rice

Nice deco light from Jiay Yuan

Huge bowl for me to eat noodles from Chwan Yeong

Bottles of juices from Chu Hoong

Mini fan from Vivien

A super fun toy from Keng Leong

希望。。。失望。。。

In the mood of drinking black tea

连续两次的有了希望；
却连续两次的失望了；
只好哀叹无奈。。。

可是，我领悟了一件事，
就是不要期望从别人那儿得到什么，
而要靠自己去争取所渴望的东西。。。

Bye kiddos

In the mood of drinking chinese tea

Today's my last day at the kindy. 5 months there seem so fast. Hell I'm gonna miss those kids. I'm so busy lately helping my mom with her new shop. It was crazy!!

It's teacher's Day and I got stuffs from the kids!!

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The top floor was so empty while the bottom one was packed
like hell and caused a huge jam outside the building.
I wonder how those people drive??!

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I got these 2 items that I bought from the internet few days ago

Drunken eye lomo lens

Sample shots

A MUST HAVE for me to goto Redang!! Wait for the photos..

你辛苦了

In the mood of drinking black tea

听着她向我诉苦，我只静静地听着，并没有给什么反应，也没说半句话，因为，我并不知道应该给她什么样的回复，心内却感觉很心酸。在听着的同时，我心里不断地在想着想着，对他的抗拒顿时增加了好多好多。平时我和他也不怎么说话，现在，我更不想跟他多说。我曾经说服自己不要这样，可是当我一见到他，我就没办法不对他产生厌恶感。看来这是我们前世的孽，无论怎么都无法修好这段关系。我知道，我真的知道，你辛苦了。我承诺让你未来的日子过得好一些。

bye 07 hi 08

In the mood of drinking green tea

In less than an hour, 2007 is over. And its a start of another new year soon. 2007 was great, there were the good and the bad, and they were inevitable, they helped people grow. As for me, I can't complain much I guess. I sincerely wish all my friends and family a great year ahead. Be happy, be contented. May 2008 be a good year for everyone. Let's welcome the new year together with joy and happiness!!

I'm different

In the mood of drinking banana milk tea

I’ve learned to appreciate what I have
I’ve learned to make full use of what I have, and not to daydream
I’ve learned to think wisely, considerately
I’ve learned to become a more useful person
I’ve learned to give more and not only take from others
I’ve learned to become stronger
I’ve learned to become better
I’ve learned to become humble
I’ve found my way, my target of life, and not to blindly follow
I’m ready to sacrifice something I like
I’m aware that there are so much more for me to learn and I will continue learning
I’ve grown… and I would like to thank those who made me a better and happier person today
I’m really grateful to them, knowing that they are the ones who concern and care for me the most, no matter what
I will never forget this forever…
I love all of you

stop it!!!!!

In the mood of drinking black tea

Why you people have to keep annoying me??!! I have my own choices to make. And stop saying I don't care!!! I hate it for real! Its important to me so I care more than you do! And stop giving me lectures!!! You are just thinking of excuses to scold me or telling me what to do, without considering the problems i'm facing with, instead of helping me to solve them and get through it. And all you know is to give me a big HOW?? everytime we talked about this matter. And when situation changes, I need some time to think. So stop asking and pushing me for a damn fucking answer!!! Just leave me alone!!!!!!

I should or should I??

In the mood of drinking earl grey tea

Maybe I should feel content
Maybe I should not be so demanding
Maybe I should be happy with what I have
Maybe I should not compare too much
Maybe I should think of those who are not lucky as I am
Maybe I should complain less
Maybe I should consider more
Maybe I should believe in hopes and chances
Maybe I should rely less on others
Maybe I should be more decisive
Maybe I should not just do what others do
Maybe I should try harder to find myself and know what I really wanted
Maybe I will be a happier person if I can fulfill the above… Hopefully

where to??

In the mood of drinking black tea

After visiting the education fair, many more options sprung out to me, making me more difficult to choose for myself. I've been procrastinating this since I finished high school. And the day has to arrive sooner or later, whether I like it or not. Its hard to decide, maybe I'm not decisive enough, or I might be too timid to make a choice, afraid that I might make a wrong one. While making choices, I still have many other considerations to take into account. I'm lost and miserable.

like i care...

In the mood of drinking black tea

I met with a high school friend who was once my good friend while picking up another friend at her hostel yesterday. It's been quite some time since I met him. So, happily I winded down the window and called out to him. Instead, I get something like "Oi" as a reply from him. He then turned back and continue talking to his friends. Just couldn't stand his cocky-ness.. Haha. After all he's nothing much to me now.

Be contented, be strong...

In the mood of drinking earl grey tea

I've just finished watching One Liter Of Tears. Its a true-story based Japanese drama telling a story of a 15 year-old girl named Aya who was diagnosed with Spinocerebellar Degeneration (SCD). Its an incurable disease that affects the patients muscles and motor systems which will eventually lead to immobility, speech and swallowing difficulties. Despite of being ill, she was strong. She tried to walk as much as she could no matter how slow, no matter how it hurts when she falls until she could no longer stand on both of her legs. She accepted her illness and did not give up on herself. She made me realize how lucky and happy it is to be healthy. Even though something bad happened, we should be happy that we're still alive while many others are struggling to live each day of their lives. When we fall, all we have to do is to get up again. Her diary has helped and encouraged millions. I will learn to be happy with what I have, and cherish them. Aya, you are indeed an extraordinary person.

当我老了。。

In the mood of drinking green tea

当我老了，不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤洒自己的衣服上时，当我忘记怎样绑鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手的教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。
你小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，直到你进入梦乡。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责备我，还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，
请不嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个‘为什么’。

当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，
请伸出你年轻有力的手扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，
请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，
只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始学习如何生活是我对你那样。

当初我引导你走上人生的路，如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑，
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

文章择选自墨西哥<数字家庭>

如果我是他....

In the mood of drinking earl grey

我们常常都会看着别人有多好，不断的在羡慕和崇拜别人。经常会听到一些女生说：“你看她多漂亮，身材多好，要是我有她一半就好了。”有些人却羡慕他人多富有，多成功，多幸福等。无可否认，我也会羡慕别人。羡慕他们想要什么就有什么，羡慕朋友们都可以出国到名校读书。电视经常有一个节目是专门数在外国明星艺人的身家。他们个个都有钱得不得了，住大洋房，豪华轿车不知有多少辆，有些甚至还有私人飞机。他们过着的豪华生活，除了被狗仔队烦着之外，相信几乎每个人都想吧。他们区区的一件首饰都值几百万。但相反的，当我看到非洲的那些受到饥荒和疾病折磨的孩子，我不禁感到悲伤。我在想，或许他们都很羡慕我目前平凡的生活吧。相比起来，我真的比他们幸福多了。要是把那些非洲的孩子和那些艺人相比，更是天渊之别。他们吃一餐，可能可以让非洲的孩子吃上好几个月。与其在羡慕别人，我倒不如把羡慕他人的精神，好好的利用在自己身上，或许我以后也可以成为别人崇拜的对象。哈哈。如果我真的有那么一天，我希望可以帮到有需要的人，这是我对自己的一个承诺。

你有生气过吗?

In the mood of drinking black tea

生别人的气并不好受。明明知道如此，但偏偏有时候却不能不生气。事情往往就是不受你控制。有时候，你并不想生那人的气，因为他没犯了什么错，而是偶尔行动或举止上惹怒了你，根本就是一件芝麻绿豆的事。但是自己想着想着，却又生气起来了。听起来好像很矛盾。也许是自己胡思乱想吧。你曾试过没有任何理由的生气一个人吗？那个人并没有得罪到你，可是你总是看他不顺眼。我试过。或许你会认为我很奇怪吧。可能是我的问题。我也不懂。。。外婆时常对我说：年轻人要看开一点，不要动不动就生气，对自己不好的。我想，我也应该听听他老人家的劝导。